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// M O M F E S S I O N // I suck as a stay at home mom. There. I said it. And I don’t feel bad about it, because I excel at other things, and know very clearly my strengths and weaknesses. Things like spring break make me have major anxiety because it’s throwing a wrench in my already chaotic routine. Phone calls don’t happen. Work sits undone. And? I have to think of fun and adventurous things to do on the daily, and not even for them, but for me to not go squirrelly, usually caused by their squirrellyness!
I love my babies to my very core. I would walk on nails for them, throw myself in front of a train for them, but play with playdoh and not care about crafts with sparkles? Forget it. There are moms that are so dang good at this stuff, I am not one of them.
I can remember only two times in my life where being at home felt like I’d hit my stride: one, when I was on my one and only mat leave, with Isla. I had nothing else to do but rock this mom gig. And two, when we had hired help, to switch off between child minding and laundry. The weight of it all felt like it had been lifted.
So, even though staying at home was always my dream - and it still is - I really struggle with loving it. When I found a career that I loved, that I could balance motherhood with - that was the dream. It still is. But until my company launches and my workerbee self gets to hustle again - the kiddos will probably be seen at the @ikeacanada Småland more often than not, and I’ll be found upstairs reading a book and drinking a hot cup of coffee.
What’s YOUR momfession?!