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Current Physique Update 🙈
〰️ Weighing around 63kgs
〰️ Eating nearly 2000 kcals daily
〰️ Just starting a new training program
〰️ Enjoying being 22 and having a life
I will be first to say I STRUGGLE with BODY IMAGE.
I have had so many moments where I’ve realised that I wasn’t happy with myself. Inconsistency with training and eating and my current condition not being as great as it could be. The fact that I kept making excuses for my lack of motivation to get to the gym or eat a little extra food. Watching the body fat slowly but surely increase while I hide behind all types of illegitimate reasons and high waisted tights.
Then today I realised something. I haven’t been to the gym properly in months, I haven’t been able to stick to macros or a diet for even longer than that. I have been going out and drinking with friends a lot more than usual and constantly worried about how I look; compared to my standard I want to be at. I’m so far from what I want to be or am aiming to be and this is all psychological and a self contrast (I know I’m not big in anyway- not my point)
This time that I’ve been going out and enjoyed life has really made me realise that despite how I portray myself in my head, other people don’t see me that way at all- the identity I’ve tied myself to trying to constantly be lean and fit and frankly even just healthy looking, mentally has distorted the perception of myself. But you know what’s funny, even though I don’t look a certain way people still want to talk to me and be friends with me and say how good I look. But it isn’t even about that, it is so much more.
This period of “fluff” and honestly nothingness has taught me that people don’t have the same perception of me as I do. That no matter what I look like it is the type of person and the vibes you put out that reflects you- this mindset is essential for an aesthetic sport which I now know.
This time of being harsh on myself has taught me a lot and I know a lot of girls who have gone through or will go through the same thing, embrace your normal- love the part of you that is you- not the physical being but the soul and the spirit ✨
That is what brings good people into your life! at Dohertys Gym Perth