Thrivingthroughgrief Photos & Videos

3 months ago

alarm set for 05:00, long trail planned, hoping to keep my feet warm with these massive beasts 👣 #thrivingthroughgrief #addictedtofreshair #washingtontrails #pnwlife #mentalhealthdayiseveryday #tryingtomakesenseoflife #missingmyfavoritehumans #ihiketocope 🚶🏼‍♀️🚶🏼‍♀️🚶🏼‍♀️🚶🏼‍♀️🚶🏼‍♀️🚶🏼‍♀️🚶🏼‍♀️ #lovemeasiam #liveagreatstory #traumarecovery #makingfriendswithambivalence

4 months ago

I had a totally different post planned for today. One that I’m sure would have been much more positive and uplifting, but then I got hit by the grief train. That’s the funny thing about grief, you can’t plan or prepare for it. It comes when it wants and you just have to endure it, go through it, and accept it. The crying fits don’t last as long anymore and I can usually compose myself in minutes rather than hours, but the pain is just as real as ever. It’s the type of pain that takes your breath away or makes you want to vomit. . . This is my brother Vinny. While many days he drove me nuts like most big brothers do, he was the absolute best human. He was passionate, kind, and selfless. He loved Disney, musicals, and Christmas music. I miss him every single day and hope Im crating a life he’d be proud of. . . My advice, don’t put off until tomorrow what you can do today. Tomorrow is never guaranteed. We are only given this one life, and it’s up to you to make the absolute most out of it. ❤️

4 months ago

When you are sorrowful look again in your heart ❤ And you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight. #perspective #thrivingthroughgrief

10 months ago

This life is full of uncertainties and that's a fact that can be quite unsettling for those of us who like to know & plan (or be in control). Over the course of Dan's illness I was made to be flexible simply because of the nature of life with cancer. I would plan our life as best I could knowing that at any moment things could change and frequently they did. The unexpected became what I prepared for. I never understood or liked this. It felt chaotic and disjointed and was incredibly frustrating. Now I see that God was using that to prepare me for everything else that was to come. I no longer see it as a frustration, it's simply a fact of life. I see that "unexpected" does not always equate negative. In the time since Dan's death I've had more unexpected things happen than I could've ever imagined and they've all been good and fun. I can't help but think if I hadn't been trained on how to "roll" with it back then, I wouldn't have been as open to the unexpected blessings I've received over the last 5 months. Would I have denied all the good simply because it didn't align with what I had planned? I'm learning that all the magic really lies in those unexpected things that pop up, that make us feel things. This is where we figure out who we are and what we do and don't enjoy. It's where some of our biggest blessings lie, waiting on us to be open to receiving them. Say yes to trying something new. Make that call that's been on your heart- even if you don't know what to say. Explore options you wouldn't typically look at. Give someone a chance even if the timing makes no sense. You may be surprised at all the wonderful things that are waiting for you! #respecttheunexpected #rollwithit #thisislife #thrivingthroughgrief #foodforthought #grief #life #surprise #joy

10 months ago

Fitness as stress relief. It's something I've come to cling to like my life depends on it, and really, it does. I've been truly dedicated to my physical wellness for the last 10 years and my goals have evolved many times. When I first started out it was to look a certain way, during nursing school it was to keep myself from ripping my hair out, then it was to see how far I could push myself. In pregnancy I learned what it meant to "maintain", and after that it was to get back to my baseline, for the last 4 years it's been more about showing Conley that our bodies are made to move and that challenging is good. When we brought Dan home on Hospice I quickly started running again. I needed a break, fresh air, time to think about what was coming. I would run down the road and sob. I'm sure it was a sight, but it was incredibly cathartic. Since January I've realized how tired my body is from 6 years of incredible frustration and stress. My goal now is simply to do what feels right that day and really listen to my body. Some days my energy level is great- I can't wait to get in the gym and lift or run or do something challenging. Some days emotions take a toll on me and I need rest so maybe I just take a walk or stretch or do a short bike ride. The benefits through my whole journey have been this: increased focus, better sleep, less anxiety, feelings of being "in control" and able to handle whatever is to come, a better mood. An added bonus is that I feel strong and good about myself. I share this to encourage you to go move your body. Set a small goal- and work towards it. When you reach it set another one. Invest time in your physical wellbeing. #fitness #grief #thrivingthroughgrief #fitmom #healthy

2 years ago

I fight for my health everyday in ways most people don't understand. I am a warrior. I hope I can just inspire or help at least one person who is having a rough day with depression or physical pain. I want you to know you aren't alone. Im sending love and healing vibes out to those who need a little extra TLC today. . . #expressyourself #bodyandsoul #warriorgoddess #warrior #strongwomen #strongbeautifulwomen #love #maffia #mindbodysoul #strongmindbody #mindbody #mindbodyhealing #yogatherapy #aloyoga #yogaforthesoul #yogainnature #yogahealing #dancerforever #dance4life #dance_like_nobodys_watchin #dancelover #mentalhealthadvocate #mentalhealthawareness #thriving #thrivingthroughgrief #thrivingthroughpain . . Photo Cred: @cathrynlanza at Asbury Park, New Jersey

2 years ago

We all have things happen in our lives that we wouldn't have necessarily written for ourselves, but that doesn't mean we can't still weave it to become a beautiful part of our story. X kf

2 years ago

My moments of bliss made all the more rich by the moments that broke me.. A heart that's been torn by grief is all the more grateful to be touched by the warm glow of a smiling soul.. I've discovered is so much healing to be found in crazy, childish giggles - especially when you once felt as if you'd never do so again. When I first lost my sister I was distressed by the idea of being a 70 year old woman who hadn't laughed with her sister in 50 years, but now I've rewritten that story to believe she still laughs with me (and probably at me half the time 😂🙈) - because I find so much more joy and happiness in the simple things since her legacy came alive in my veins.. I live twice as big, love twice as deep and laugh twice as hard now - and I'm inspired to think of old and grey me still doing the same for the two of us even 50 years from now - (probably with a few less teeth! 😁🙊😂). X kf #laughingforthetwoofus #foranother50yearsandmore #healingmyheartandsoul

4 years ago

My inspirational friend @manpreetdhillon continues to amaze me with the work that she does. I went to her book signing at Strawberry Hill Chapters today and was in awe of how she took a painful personal experience and created a moment to show people that they can be their very best, no matter what the situation. Manpreet, I am so proud of this achievement and look forward to witnessing your future successes! #inspiration #author #empowerment #thrivingthroughgrief