2 hours ago
Sorry it's been a while since I've last posted.
I've been going through some tough times atm.
My therapist got fired after he got a new boss, I'm pretty sure it's because his boss realised that hes making friends with me but I dont have enough evidence.
I'm failing in science to the point where I'm gonna have to stay in highschool for 4 and a half years instead of 4 because of it.
My mothers in debt to almost 3 digits and im pretty sure it's on me.
I havent had a chance to speak to many people so it's been driving me, so much stress from school and me wanting to finish art and shit from home.
I've resorted to cutting again, either that or punching/hitting myself, it hurts but its satisfying to me.
Makes me realise that. Like this because of me.
I could be a decent daughter, sister, aunt, cousin, friend.
But I'm not and it's my fault, so I punish myself for not being up to my standards.
I guess the only reliefs I have now is spending time with my mom or cat, and being in calls with my best friends.
I'm honestly such a mess right now and yet again.
The person I hate the most, is myself.
Obviously I know I cant be perfect but I want to be like my brother and older sister, their so close to that but I'll never be so it shreds me down
Sorry for not posting.
Have some hashtags.
#saveme #help #helpme #ihatemyself #notgoodenough #selfharm #selfhate #noselfconfidence #killme #failingschool #failure #overwhelmed #stressed