2 days ago
"Don't capture their hearts. Steal their imagination." @roshanichokshi, The Gilded Wolves
Okay yes, I know its Friday, and we do Feyre on Fridays but I promise there's a good story here (and there will be Feyre later).
August 16th, today, would have been my dad's 57th birthday. He was Polish. And a scientist. So when I opened up Gilded Wolves and got to Zofia's first chapter I wept (I also promise to gush more throughly about this book). It hurts that he isn't here. It hurts that I can't ask him for advice about big decisions, gush about this book to him, or wax poetic about the nature of the universe. It hurts that he'll never see my condo, that he'll never meet my cat, that he'll never see any of my cosplay photos.
I always have a spin. I always try to say something positive. I can't find the spin today, everytime I've tried to write it it feels hollow. My grief has been a lot of numbness and anger recently. It's challenging to creatively work past. It's hard to be elegant about it in social media posts.
Maybe there's a part of my dad that I carry with me who can see my work. Who is proud of me. He didn't get to do nearly as much art as he wanted. So I have to do twice as much.
You only get one life. Make as much light in the universe as possible.
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