22 days ago
You've been feeling the change here, and how much easier things are suddenly becoming. You don't know how to write yourself love letters that aren't centered around struggle and hardship and resilience. And it's cool - we're gonna learn. Because you can love more than your ability to keep going through pain. And you've not really had the breathing room to do that in the last decade, for whatever myriad reason.
So here we are. You've found two new people that you really trust and who are as excitable as you. Today one of them took you on an ocean /forest adventure that you nearly exploded with joy about. The other takes you swimming to fulfill the woeful lack of bath time in your life. Your roommate comes home and is thrilled to see you, and loves your food (a love language that has been fully exploited in the past that I am so proud and happy for you to have held onto) and is very very very safe and stable.
So here's to loving the parts of you that are breath taken and heart stopped at trees in forests, that scream and giggle when oysters spit at you, that touches all the sea creatures with care and curiosity, and who continues to love new people unabashedly as you always have.
This is a force that you are darling, and your worth is not just in what you can survive, but the ways you curate joy. Be joyful without fearing the fall, because you've survived worse and that part is, for this moment and maybe the next, over.
So giggle as you do at the oncoming rain and know that's just as important as the space you make for healing. °
Image description: a series of images. The first is bree in a purple pastel sweater with a floral button up underneath, a black rain jacket and toque. The second is a staircase leading down towards a sheltered ocean cove surrounded by greenery. The third is bree holding a live oyster against a gravel beach with tiny black snails on it. The fourth is a picture of a red soil path through Douglas fir forest, and the last is an image of a bright orange spiral shell against a rock dappled with barnacles. #yyj #victoria #queersofinsta #queersofinstagram #nonbinary #trans #survivor #ibelieveyou #ipv #domesticviolence #dv