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My desire to control do not come from my strength but from my weakness. He kissed me that day not long before we met just few hours ago. He asked for my number, but when I got the chance to run, I ran away and went back to my hotel room... I ran in fear and confusion away from this rugged “nipa” house. No not another man ten years younger. No not another fourth round of insanity.
That was the start of my downward spiral. But in my desperation... I know God was there, witnessing how I chose to compromise for temporary fill to an eternal longing for intimacy. How I chose to make my own way of temporary fix to my deep spiritual poverty. When I ran away, I ran away from the rugged cross... but in my wandering God sought for me, pursued me, just like a sheep. Jesus left the hundreds just to look for me. God found me, brought me back, covered my nakedness, cleansed, washed and made whole. To die daily to my own ways and understanding. To take up my cross daily and follow Him. He gave me purpose, to enjoy and live an exemplary life. Yes that is God will do and continue to do with this recovered life. My lifelong journey.
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