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This is my view right now 😍 holding my sleeping baby in my arms, and I wouldn’t trade anything in the world for moments like this. This week was stressful because I was at a crossroads between motherhood and furthering my career. I have been offered multiple high salary jobs, but the downside is that they are full time and I would have to be away from my son for long periods of time every day.
I kept trying to convince myself to just take the jobs. I kept telling myself..I’ve already had 10 months with him, I could save all my checks, I could finish my hours a lot faster (I only have 500 more to go), I kept telling myself that I could just go full time for a few months and then quit. And I know that so many moms have a full time job, and I see them and they are happy, and their babies are good, everything’s good. But I kept trying to compare myself to them and kept trying to force myself to wear multiple hats, the “mommy” hat, the “therapist” hat, the “career” woman hat. But the truth is that I just couldn’t fit into all these roles at the same time.
My personal truth is that I strongly desire to be at home with my baby, and I want to spend most of my day with him rather than spend most of my day at work. I just couldn’t get over the fact that I would only be spending about 2 hours a day with him before he went to bed for the night, if I made it home before then. This is what really helped put things into perspective for me.
I think for moms it can be such a painful, difficult, and stressful situation to be in and it can be a very confusing time. I finally decided to turn down the full time jobs, and take on more afternoon clients at work. Even though this means I go at a slower pace, this is the way things are for the time being. And the truth is, my baby will only be this little for such a short time. My career will always be there. My education and my degree will always be there. Money will always be there. There will be job offers in my future, but my son will only be a baby for a short time. It took me a lot of prayer and reflection to get to this point, and this may not be ideal for everyone, but it’s the best decision for me. ❤️ #thelovedgift