37 minutes ago
MY MOST REVEALING, CONTROVERSIAL TOPIC EVER . Trigger warning ⚠️.
I was terrified . Harrison is almost 7 months old and I am “ 3 weeks “ late now .
After the experience I had giving birth to Harrison the idea of another pregnancy and another birth was overwhelming.
I took a test with this feeling of fear . Something I’ve never felt before , but also guilt .... for feeling that way , for wishing that it would be negative.
It was indeed negative ...
And it was a huge relief, to be honest .... the fear of being faced with the “A” were was the most scariest thing.
After nearly losing my life after having Harry I know my body cannot carry anymore children , I know that financial as well we couldn’t and I know I’m done at 4 .
Although a controversial topic,when I first became a mother I didn’t believe in the “ A” word but sometimes it’s inevitable. For medical reasons , for financial reasons or simple because you feel that you don’t want to or aren’t ready to become a parent , I believe you have a choice and although I feel so lucky that I don’t have to face that now I believe people who do should have the support around them .
Also , the fact that I even have to call it the “ A “ word because it’s so taboo sucks .
So instead of judging or making harsh comments how about just showing support for women in these situations , she is probably giving herself a hard time she doesn’t need you to either . I’ve had people close to me lose children , who have had misscarriages so I know the sensitively of this topic but if it’s going to put your health and life at risk , especially if you have a family already you have to think of yourself and your children.
Also For those questioning whether or not I was safe , I was. Contraception was used however not having a period that was 3 weeks late was still alarming and enough to make me test . I get the whole if you aren’t responsible you should face the consequences however we were responsible and let’s also keep in mind some people don’t have a choice,Also contraception is never full proof. So let’s start giving people a voice shell we? Whether it’s pro choice or pro life whatever there reason is , it’s valid .... it’s theres at Melbourne, Victoria, Australia