3 days ago
Photo on the left was taken June 28th 2018
Photo on the left was taken February 19th 2019
7 months, 19 days.
The photo on the left.. In New Brunswick at a Festival.
I was in a loop hole of emotion.. 8 months before this photo, i moved away from the annapolis valley, where i have always lived for the first time.
In the city with not many that ive known
away from all I've ever known.. BUT for myself. To do shadow work, I set goals, aspirations, intending to do the progress process.. shadow work- reaching into the subconcious mind and purging it all to the fore front, from experiences of sexual, physical, emotional abuse, abandonment, all fled to the concious mind.
All that i have bottled, created the broken sense of self on the outside.
I was re experiencing these emotions, which created the dark spiral i intentionally walked into.. Which projected a lot of anger and sadness. expressing it in ways of envy, jealousy, rage - Feeling not whole/good enough.
Going through a major shift of emotion.. toxicity surrounded me willingly and intentionally.
By people ( mostly by communication error, unhealed wounds bringing upon projection)
Environment (Dense energies, in the land, living space. )
foods (chemically processed)
I was allowing myself to absorb and nourish myself with.. it was self sabotaging, by not sustaining myself in a healthy way
I leaned on people thinking they were my people, those who i thought understood my soul.
while also holding onto the pain of those i held onto, those who understood my soul but rowing their boat while trying to keep my own afloat.
Which brought me to the photo on the right,
By just letting go.
No longer holding on, Releasing the baggage of my own, and those I've ever carried.
I feel lighter, more divinely guided, healthier in ways of nourishing my mind, body and soul.
happier, by living more in my heart space than in my head.
Learning new ways of coping..
Deep breath work
Still experiencing the subconscious reprogramming but sustaining myself in a healthy way to continue the clearing process.
My environment - In the midst of south America.