5 hours ago
I am smiling more today. This week has been a whirlwind of emotions. My anxiety was back daily. I cried a bit. I focused on meditating more but I felt completely out of sorts. #
I don’t like feeling sad and out of control with anxiety. Fortunately I don’t have that all or nothing mentality about my anxiety anymore. I know it will ebb if I let it flow and just get in the middle of it.
I journaled. I talked to my close friends. I had some wine (this never helps by the way—it’s only temporary). I continued to work out, eat in my plan (with a birthday lapse yesterday of Chinese food and IHOP pancakes, and wine), and take deep breaths (there’s a reason Breathe is inked on my wrist) and have faith that I could get through this to the other side.
This is the first day in a while I felt back to myself. Change is inevitable. Growth is messy sometimes especially when you have to take a deep look in the mirror and assess yourself...who you are versus who you might think you are.
I’m thankful for my close inner circle of friends who support, uplift me and don’t always tell me what I want to hear. You know who you are.
Tomorrow is a new day. Tonight I choose to feel peaceful and I’m grateful for the ability to be in synch with my breathing and mind. ❤️❤️❤️