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REWRITE YOUR STORY
If you could time travel back to 2016 and see me then, you would see an entirely different person. It still blows my mind that I went from being unconfident, shy, and socially anxious, with no real purpose or zest for life - to becoming a woman who feels powerful, confident, driven, passionate and more in love with life than I ever thought possible.
I’m not saying that out of Ego - I’m saying that because I’m genuinely so freaking proud of the person I’m becoming.
Cuz trust me - it hasn’t always been like this.
3 years ago I had graduated college and was waitressing at a sports bar in San Diego where I THOUGHT I was pretty content with life.
I was totally and completely ASLEEP- asleep in the sense that I was completely DISCONNECTED from my internal world, my emotions/thoughts controlled me, and I had no clue what it took to be truly healthy (although I thought I was one of the healthiest people ever - LOL, #iifym is not a synonym for health btw).
Worst of all, my happiness was entirely based on my external circumstances - how much money I made that week, which guys were feeding my Ego, drinking on weekends to escape my dull reality, binging Netflix shows whenever I had free time, obsessing over my weight and stuck in a vicious cycle of going from being content with life with some confidence in myself (when depriving my body) to then losing all hope and hating my body & feeling shame for my lack of control (when binging and emotional eating).
My level of happiness was directly tied to my appearance- because I assumed that’s what people cared about. Maybe not consciously, but that’s what my subconscious mind believed so my emotions were radically unstable and I was never sure of what state of mind I would be in day-to-day.
Not only that, but back then - I had ZERO idea how much my subconscious mind controlled my EMOTIONS, behavior, thought patterns, and ABILITY to create my life.
So what changed?
Is my body perfect now?
Am I making tons of money?
Do I have a crazy amazing relationship?
Nope, single as ever.
(Continued below...) at Oakland, California