8 hours ago
So I usually don’t share too much of my private life on this Insta account. Mostly because I thought, what stranger really gives a shit about my life 🤷🏻♀️. Except during this current trip into hospital while I sit here with my thoughts and not much else to do, I figured why not - this IS part of my journey. I started my account as a way of helping myself to be accountable, to learn what I didn’t know, connect with others living the same lifestyle and if I happened to help another in the beginning of their journey or to stay on track then that’s a huge bonus.
In the 10yrs since leaving a multi-abusive relationship with my children’s dad and since living a completely solo mum role to 2, I have learned a lot. I’ve learned who I am in so many areas, and surprised myself with how strong and absolutely defiant I can be when facing adversity, just how much fight I truly have in me & that I can handle far more than I ever thought I could. And continue to do so. Another thing I’ve truly learned over the years is how much mental health goes hand in hand with physical health. After so many ups and downs over the years it became more and more apparent. Self healing with mental health and the past I’ve lived through takes a lot of time and a LOT of work. Constantly.
My next big moment in life to tackle is coming up in 5 weeks. I’m finally getting to sort out one major cause of my current mental and physical health state. Sadly it comes in the form of an abdominal hysterectomy. Happy it’s happening, sad because I cannot have it done keyhole. Apparently I am an over achiever when it comes to how big I can grow uterine fibroids as the main one I have is the size of a football. It’s so big my kids gave it a name, just like you name a growing baby. Thaddeus. We amuse ourselves in weird ways like that 😂😂Well Thaddeus has a few siblings in there that are apple sized and smaller. And they’ve all got to go! Two years of living as if I am 6months pregnant is enough. More than enough. Looking forward however, I hope to find renewed strength and focus to achieve my healthy lifestyle goals. Both mentally and physically. #hysterectomy #hystersister #uterinefibroids #fibroids