3 months ago
Being someone who struggles with ADHD, I, as well as the people around me, can tell you first hand - ADHD is a beast to handle. One minute I'll be smack in the middle of a serious conversation, the next I could be talking about a puppy I saw on TV. Forget trying to get me to focus on one thing for more than 5 minutes - you will fail miserably. So, if we ever meet and we're having a serious conversation and I start talking about how I love your hair or I need to list more stuff on Ebay tomorrow, please know I am not trying to be rude. That is just how my brain works... It is a literal constant string of squirrels that intertwine and pop up at random times. That doesn't mean I don't care - I'm still focusing on you and am present in the conversation, even if my eyes looking at the floor or the sky or the person behind you say otherwise.
And before anyone starts barking at me about being on medication... Been there, done that. I was on Ritilin from age 7 to age 16. I took myself off because I did not like the way it made me feel. I was out of it all the time. Instead of being focused on something, I'd be staring right at it and have no idea what I was saying or doing. I would be sitting in class randomly falling asleep. I had no appetite or emotions... I was a robot just going through the motions of life... A living, breathing zombie, if you will. It was terrible and I would not wish that feeling on anyone. I tried other medications and they did not work or they made me violent or nervous. I went off Ritilin and literally gained 75lbs and got my life back.
I would rather be a spastic, overweight, hot mess than not feel anything at all.
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