2 months ago
Eyes so cold and lifeless you’d swear the grim reaper had come knocking on their door and left them with nothing but a body to use and abuse — that’s how you can tell a current addict. Even a former one will have tells: maybe the hurt is in the tone of their voice, maybe their eyes ain’t as blue as they used to be, or the way they walk lacks purpose. Whatever the tell — an addict picks up on it. They know right away if you’re one of them or have been. When patients ask me if I’m in recovery (I am. Recovery is a lifelong process, no matter when the last time you used is.) I tell ‘em no. But there’s an unspoken understanding between us. I have my tells — and most of them include me running myself into the ground all day to make sure they have what they need to make their lives a little more bearable for the time being. I know what it’s like to hate yourself, to feel frustrated, used up and guilty all at the same time — like the world swallowed you whole and spit you back out, leaving you to either pick up the remaining pieces of yourself or eventually die the mess you are. I’m also painfully aware of how I barely made it out of that hole, just barely intact, and definitely missing some parts of myself. There’s always collateral damage involved. The truth is, I’d run myself into the ground 7 days a week, 24 hours a day if it meant that every patient I interact with made it out the other side of their addictions and mental health problems and it killed me instead in the process. It hurts me more to see them in the middle of their own personal hells.
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