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Yesterday was Family Day long weekend and I was longing to do something special for my kids and spend this time together. As some of you know from my stories I have bronchitis and overall feel very sick physically right now. So we couldn’t go out and I didn’t have the energy to do anything special at home either.
Last two years this would have deeply saddened me, I would think about what I CAN’T do because of my physical health limitations, it was triggering my depression and I would grieve my pre-concussion life where I could go wherever whenever I wanted. Also a big thing that would play a role is me thinking that my kids are missing out because of me, like somehow it’s my fault I can’t push myself harder and recover from this for so long. I felt guilty and ashamed for the mother I am.
Those thoughts were self-destructive, there’s no truth in them and no hope. If you find yourself today limited in any way and you’re beating yourself up for that - don’t.
Look at your loved ones and see how they love you, unconditionally. Your presence is enough, your hugs and kisses are beaming with love and they feel it.
Sometimes it’s hard not to compare yourself to others as you scroll through beautiful family pictures on Instagram, thinking how amazing is their lives. But I’m reminding myself how I’m doing so much considering my circumstances, and that should be enough!
Here is an awesome example from the Bible that was given to me at a counselling session by a Christian phycologist and pastor:
“Jesus looked up and saw the rich putting their gifts into the offering box, and he saw a poor widow put in two small copper coins. And he said, "Truly, I tell you, this poor widow has put in more than all of them. For they all contributed out of their abundance, but she out of her poverty put in all she had to live on."”
This changed my perspective so much! 🤯 Bible is truly the most valuable book in my life, it’s way more than just a book!
Maybe some of you needed to read this today🌷 at Vancouver, British Columbia