46 seconds ago
and this day
too is a gift -
to cast off
—— “in sickness,” a haiku by mend
This morning - bleary-eyed, voiceless, achy, and weak - I watched rain fall and drank my second cup of gypsy tea. As I gulped the last sip, I noticed the tag on the tea string. It said, “You cannot have the rose without the thorn.” I scribbled the Persian proverb in my journal and slumped up the stairs shortly after a bowl of bone broth with fresh garlic cloves and coconut oil. And, simple as it was, I kept thinking on the proverb. You see, this seasonal virus that has plagued me the past few days comes in the midst of a major life transition. About a month ago, I was forced to face the ways I was sabotaging my long-term healing with sugars and grains. In my mind, I was committed to the autoimmune paleo protocol, but in practice I was devouring my kids’ leftover Z bars, pizza slices, and gluten-free cookies. And my body was none to happy. Strange mystery symptoms abounded, chronic back and joint pain would not let up, digestive issue upon digestive issue persisted. So a few weeks ago, I re-committed to the AIP plan with a little temporary keto thrown in to help break my life-long sugar addiction. Enter my detox hangover. As I lay in bed this morning practicing nadisoshana breathing and guided imagery to “move my pain,” it dawned on me. This temporary illness is exactly what I need. I am being purified, like gold. All the impurities are rising to the surface to be skimmed away. It doesn’t make the pain any easier, but it does give it purpose. And I can live with that. Oh friends, may we keep faith with our bodies, as our dear John O’Donohue said. May we see them as holy sanctuaries / Which can bring this night-wound gradually / Toward the healing and freedom of dawn. And may we mend. All my love to you, dear friends. .
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