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DAY 21: Last week, I prayed, "Search me, God, and know my heart. Test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting." Huh! God was quick with this one! He started to show me how quick I am to get in my feelings & how I let them dictate my life. Sometimes I catch them, marinate in them, let them simmer and then I act. Other days, they're like ready to eat meals. They just need a quick dash in the microwave for results to show themselves. That microwave is usually finding someone who will catch these feelings with me. The one who will, "what?", "oh no they didn't! ", " that's so unfair!", "uwwww he's cute!", "just do it!", "yolo!" with me. These, thankfully, rarely have a lasting effect --if I was a cartoon character with a little devil on one shoulder & an angel on the other, the angel is louder in my case- she usually talks me out of any nonsense before I act. I also think she's besties with the Holy Spirit. Anyway, it's the feelings that I let marinate that have a big impact. Good or bad, the feelings I don't acknowledge are usually where the trouble begins. I start hanging out with my friends more because I feel good when I'm around them & start avoiding family gatherings because it doesn't feel good to be reminded that your hips have got a life of their own these days or asked when you're bringing the in-law (dude, leave your father's house already, I am tayad of taking this bullet for you 😂). These feelings dictate my life without me even realising it. They have taken the place of faithfulness, love, discipline & self-control in my life.
So, today I'm grateful to God for showing me the shape of my heart (sorry, couldn't help it) through Your Word today all week, through the various blog posts... Shoutout to @desiringgod @thegospelcoalition @p31obs . I pray that this knowledge will truly transform me & my relationships.
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