1 day ago
That gal with the cute little rolls poking out from her crop top is me, Steph 🙃I used to be really skinny in college but before that I was always “the big girl”. Besides being about 6’ tall, I am a muscular, natural athlete. I was always slightly over the “healthy” BMI to which my pediatrician told me to “just poop to lose a few pounds and be back in a healthy range” 🤣. Instead of embracing the fact that I could beat all the boys in pretty much any sport, I was ashamed b/c I wasn’t skinny.
But in college I got focused and I kinda stopped eating, & weighed in 30 pounds less than I am now! Looking back, hot damn, I was tiny!! Problem was, my brain couldn’t see it. I don’t have any photos of myself in a swimsuit at this time b/c I kept thinking “as soon as I lose just 5 more pounds, then I’ll be ready to show everyone I am finally like all of my other beautiful skinny friends”. But that 5 pounds turned into wanting to lose 5 more, & then 5 more and so on. I was never satisfied with how much I weighed, no matter how low that scale got & I had a bad relationship with food. And then I graduated college, and I gained it all back, in a really unhealthy, confidence obliterating way.
My confidence was at an all time low when I joined @crossfit269 a year ago. But since joining, I learned from the coaches as well as the other members there, not to eat to lose weight but to eat to provide my body with proper nutrients and energy. That eating a doughnut is nothing to be ashamed of but eating fresh veggies, fruits and clean meats is cool because it’s what our awesome, hardworking bodies deserve. And that watching the number on the scale go up isn’t always a bad thing b/c it means I’m getting strong and that’s sexy 🔥
@crossfit269 has taught me, my body is pretty damn cool. It can run fast, lift really heavy things, & recover for the next hard workout. It deserves to be honored, not constantly picked at for it’s imperfections, not given sketchy detox skinny shakes & not to be hidden away or be ashamed of. I have more goals to reach but I’m choosing to be happy right here & now of all the hard work I’ve put in these last few months & be confident wit these cute little rolls 💁 at Kalamazoo, Michigan