23 days ago
Can I be honest with you all?
I have felt abit uneasy or unsure of posting transformation pics recently because I’m starting to feel that I don’t necessarily see my posts as ‘transformational’, let me explain what I mean… ⠀⠀⠀
I am on a journey.
Actually no… that indicates I’m on a straight road. 🙅🏼♀️
I am on a flipping rollercoaster. 🎢 .
In 2016 I thought I had hit the end of my ‘fitness journey’ & ‘transformation’ when I reached my goal of competing in a bikini competition… to then go through post comp blues & put on 30kg in 4 months from binge-eating an INSANE amount.😨.
My weight was like a yo-yo for almost 2 years due to restricting, binge-eating, illness, health, motivation, defeat. My head was truly fudged during this process. 👎🏼. I’m now on a steady path once again with the help & guidance from my coach @team_lrf HOWEVER, I’m still the same young girl 🙋🏼♀️, with big dreams 🌈 , a big heart 💓 , (and honestly a big appetite 🐷 hahaha). I have learnt to be disciplined once again… and yes my body composition is transitioning as I want to compete this year 👙 …
…but is it a huge transformation? 💭 .
Yes my body fat is decreasing. ✂️.
But does my body fat define me?
Does my body fat dictate if I’m a good person?
Is my body fat an indication of my self-worth? … no. ⠀⠀⠀
I’ve always felt like I could not love myself if I was ‘fat’. Why? ⠀⠀⠀
Yes I am slowly changing my outside appearance. Why? It makes me feel good.
Does it change who I am inside? To some degree… (You learn a lot during prep, such as discipline, routine, habits etc).
But does it change my morals?
My core values?
Whether I’m kind & caring?
So how transformational is my transformation? .... #LifeOfAnOverThinker 😂💭
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