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“To love someone fiercely, to believe in something with your whole heart, to celebrate a fleeting moment in time, to fully engage in a life that doesn’t come with guarantees – these are risks that involve vulnerability and often pain. But, I’m learning that recognizing and leaning into the discomfort of vulnerability teaches us how to live with joy, gratitude and grace” (Berne Brown, The Gifts of Imperfection.) .
A birthday is a perfect reason to remember you, my mom. Learning to love vulnerably has proven the riskiest thing I’ve tried to do since your death, but God has been faithful to me as I navigate this wilderness. In all the ways I can remember you, the one that captivates my mind today, “she kept the faith.” In your success, in your failures, in your insecurities, in your unmet longings, in your fear, in your worry, in your waiting, in your wondering- you kept the faith and could because He was faithful to you. Yeah, that’s it, that is what I think I’d tell you today if I could. Thank you, God, for this woman who loved me, trained me, taught me- until I became a woman of my own. What a gift and joy to carry out a legacy left.