3 minutes ago
"mom, why don't you ever bring a bathing suit on vacation" Cruz asked while all 6 of our family members were jumping in and splashing around the pool at the hotel, while I sat and watched as always. The words "because I'm too f🤬" nearly spilled out. How ugly would that have been for my kids to hear. How sad is that I allowed fear of judging eyes to keep me away from having fun with my family.
So I went straight to the store and bought a bathing suit and here I am for the first time in 9 years... NINE YEARS.. in a bathing suit, without a care, having a blast #PowerInPostpartum
This IG space can be very overwhelming and negative sometimes, however it has been very inspiring and motivating in so many ways. I have made some amazing connections with mamas walking the same paths, the same seasons. Seeing so many beautiful stories has brought so much perspective on my personal postpartum journey. Do I want to lose some weight.. YES absolutely, but not for anything other than become healthier and stronger for me and my family. I have taken my time the last 2 years to care for my mental health. I have learned to love and appreciate myself and my body. This body, that is used to sit in the background and watch everyone else have fun, has given me 5 beautiful children in 5 years. Its about time I stop worrying about others and just live in the moments and enjoy this time. There is only 18 summers before adulthood and the time that our children will actually want to spend with us is even less. How silly it is to waste these precious moments worrying about what others think of us, of what we look like. If you need me, I will be splashing around or floating in this amazing Unicorn Island🦄 from @CanadianTire all summer long. And yes, you are more than welcome to come hang out with us 🍹😉 at Windsor, Ontario