28 days ago
Here's where I'm at in my journey.
I have all of my requirements for surgery met and have just two more dietician visits before I can submit to insurance. My last visit will be in May, so I am anticipating having VSG sometime in June, if I am approved.
My dietician tries to talk me out of surgery each time she sees me. She sees my 23 pound loss as proof that I can lose the remaining 81 pounds of excess weight on my own. But in all of my life I have NEVER been able to get there.
Having others invalidate my decision to pursue surgery makes me question myself on a daily basis. Nowhere else except in the weight loss surgery community is 200 pounds considered small. I realize to some that that number is a goal weight, but I refuse to think that just because I am there it means I have to stop wanting surgery.
I have a slew of reasons for continuing to go through with this, and not a single one has to do with vanity or because I'm idealizing a certain number. I want to put as much distance between myself and the fate that others in my family have faced. Having an additional tool like vsg is only going to help me never ever go back to old habits, and I need that desperately.
All this being said, the only way I would stop pursuing this surgery would be if insurance continued to deny it. Until then, I am going to keep on keeping on.