13 minutes ago
.a little bit stronger.
Yesterday, a good friend of mine asked me what happened to this fitness account and it made me realize something, this page was never an accurate representation of me and my personal journey. I was willing to show the #sweatyselfie and the #progresspic but I wasn’t willing to show the reason behind it all.
Fitness for me began as a fight against depression. The day before I turned 16, I lost a dear friend of mine. It was a traumatic time, and I made choices afterwards that I truly wish I could take back. One of these choices was getting on the Pill. The Pill was the “cure” for my periods that lasted for MONTHS. Little did I know the effects it would have on me. For 4 and 1/2 years, I felt completely stuck and trapped in my body; I became a hermit that always made an excuse to stay home, I gained weight that I could NOT lose, I lost all sense of motivation, and I’m pretty sure I even suffered from memory loss. I chalked it up to the trauma of losing a friend (which is definitely a part of it) but deep down I knew there was something more to my sudden/ongoing personality change. Almost 3 years ago, when I was 20, I decided to research the Pill that my doctor said would “fix” me. What I found out confirmed my fears, the Pill can alter your brain chemistry and cause depression, as well as many other health issues. At this point, I was terrified of staying on the Pill and terrified of getting off (who knew what my period would do once I got rid of the one thing regulating it)! Thanks to the Period Repair Manual by @larabriden , I was able to find what worked for me to successfully get off of the Pill, and it ALL revolves around fitness and lifestyle changes.
I still struggle with the after effects of the Pill, as well as the mental trauma of losing a loved one, and (apart from Jesus) exercise is the only thing that can get me out of my random bouts of depression.
Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger, physically and mentally. And that’s why I’m here, to maybe encourage one person to get up, tighten their pony tail, and empower themselves to get a little bit stronger💫
What’s your story?