19 hours ago
It is a challenge to show up in times of uncertainty.
When things don't quite make sense yet, or things that don't feel good have happened.
This past week or so I have been moving through lots of confusion. Things just haven't made sense in so many ways.
I have had a sense that they will make sense SOON, but they didn't (and still don't quite) make sense now.
The confusion stems from feeling like I've reached a fork in the road around a few big things in my life. Some decisions need to be made, clarity found, tough conversations had.
Normal life things really.
Which is why I share now, because this discomfort in uncertainty is pretty universal.
It's not easy to feel amazing while things feel 'up in the air'. I've been asking myself the question:
How do we continue to show up, be present and keep moving (albeit slowly) when confusion, uncertainty are densely surrounding us?
And it took me a few days of asking this question for the answers to come; one answer was "softly, gently, one foot in front of the other" and the other deeper answer came in the form of this poem:
Shows me my misalignment
I’m outside of myself
I say I am
But actually I mean disconnected.
As they come back to me
All my parts
I see more clearly
But the fog hasn’t fully lifted.
It may not for a little while.
I need to be patient
Like a goat on a journey up a big hill
And find the right path forward
Wait for it to reveal itself
With savvy respect for the hill itself
With respect for uncertainty.
It’s easy to be comfortable
When we are certain.
But not so easy
Amidst the absence of certainty.
The answer for me
Is to reconnect with my inner
Let the outer become clear
Because of the inner. --- poem written by me ---- And so, to summarise, the answer is always MORE SELF CONNECTION.
How can I connect with myself more deeply? Clear out the noise and clutter? How can I connect with my own intuition?
For me that looks like an increase in art play, nature time, meditation, journalling and/or movement to support myself through feelings of uncertainty. It can look similar but different for all of us. <3
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