7 days ago
#tbt #throwbackthursday to a time (not THAT long ago) when I felt strong and capable. The Cowtown Marathon last Feb (2018) fell on a weekend I was travelling with my husband when I had 24 on my plan anyway so- it saved me planning a route in a place I didn’t know. I went out with a goal of feeling strong but cautious, practicing all the fuelling routines etc for Boston (my goal race) later in the season. I felt really strong ALL the way and only had to work really hard in the last mile or so when it got HOT and I was tired.^ Hubby took that photo at mile 25 and then I overtook that chap just in front of me. There’s nothing like the buzz of an amazing race. It really made me feel like I’d blow Boston out the water because I had been holding back.... and then.... Boston 🙄😂 I’m not unhappy with my 🏊🏻♀️ swim but clearly- no PR in Boston for me.
Anyway, it’s Funny how things turn out, it’s still my PR race. Having a good race feels a million miles away right now and isnt just about being fit. If there’s anything I’ve learned on this journey, it’s about so much more. All the ducks have to be in a row and sometimes even if it looks like they are, they aren’t.. .
Even though it’s only been a few days since I was told I’m fighting Anaemia and now possibly an under active thyroid too (this is new news to me so more to come on that when we’ve got to the bottom of it), but all in all I’m feeling down and truthfully, a bit lost. I’ve made no secret about the fact I love to work hard on my goals, it makes me tick- daily. It makes me feel calm and centred. The whole package of planning, training, preparing, adapting.... running. But I can’t do any of it without the last little bit- running! And with every run recently, it’s taken me longer and longer to recover and every run has felt worse. So in all honesty I’m scared, So I’ve stopped. I have NO idea if I SHOULD stop completely, if it will help me get better faster, or whether fighting through even slow short miles is better (even though whatever it would be would be far from what was planned)? But come back I will. I know I’ve got more in me, it may just take longer than I’d hoped to get there.