4 hours ago
I say “yes” to projects I’ve never done before. I send out ideas to things I’m not sure I could actually do. It’s terrifying agreeing to create something I’m not convinced of myself that I’m capable of, or agreeing to put on a show that I have never done before. I get overwhelmed with dread that I can’t do it or do it well once someone agrees that they like the idea of the art. I call it the “point of dread.” It’s the time from the start of the project to believing I can do the project. I have to move through this feeling to make art. I move through the feelings that I can’t actually do this, that I have no idea what I’m doing, that I can’t believe anyone could trust me to create something they’d eventually love.. these are just some of the thoughts that go through my mind at the start of most projects. These thoughts usually result in procrastination. But at some point (usually due to deadlines either self imposed or project imposed), I finally do the project. In these moments, I am amazed with myself, that I was capable of doing something I never thought I’d be able to. — I am determined to not let my fear stop my from creating things I’ve never tried before. I am determined to not let my fear stop me from stretching myself beyond my current reach and growing.
📷 @rk.sanders ✨🦋 at Philadelphia, Pennsylvania