32 minutes ago
Never posted these until now but...
These were the first tattoos I got, on my 18th birthday.
All throughout my schooling years I struggled with my mental health. I didnt know how to talk about the trauma I was through as a child and i blamed myself for what i went through. Once I became 13 I started self-harming and that went on until my senior year of Highschool and then off and on until about 5 months ago. It wasn't because I wanted to kill myself, even though at times I feel like I did, but it was because i didnt know how to talk to people, nor did i want to, and when I did; I usually was talking to the wrong person seeking advice, then following their advice (unaware). So I took the anger and sadness felt out on myself. At 16, I started going in and out of behavioral health hospitals; I was misdiagnosed with so many mental illnesses and forced to take so many different medications by friends, family members, s/o's, and dr.'s that thought they were helping me. The medications I was on had more side effects than benefits (some temporary some permanent). Most people dont realize that psych medications will not only alter a person's thought + decision making processes; but also how their physical body functions. Because of the medications I was forced to take, I had made alot of choices I'm not proud of, and if you are reading this; i am sorry if i hurt your feelings in any way. It was probably the medicated version of me, or I was in the process of changing to another medication that wasnt right for me. Turns out all I needed to do was Let Go..
let go of the trauma, let go of the negative people in my life, and let go of/ stop following the horrible advice others had told me, and that's not so easy to do. I finally feel like I took my power back.
#firsttattoo #quotationmarks #mentalhealth #stopselfharming #growandglow #survivornotavictim #imsorry #accountability #forgiveme? #movingon #nextchapteroflife