4 months ago
Today started off pretty rough. Depression, lethargy, and apathy were running high, let me tell you. I had to give myself a talking to: sit up and get out of bed, take a shower (I had a bout of crying in there, if we're being honest) and get dressed. Throughout those tasks, I had a background chat with myself because I knew I needed to keep myself busy, I had to do *something* today.
I decided to work on the project I began yesterday (and temporarily abandoned in that sudden onset of depression, lethargy, and disinterest). I grabbed my supplies and this little lap table/stand I have and started what I had left; I finished half of what was left.
Then... I just couldn't do any more. I was literally laying my head on my forearms on that table. My mom saw me and asked if I was alright, and I said, "I'm just really tired. Like, physically tired." She listed some vitamins that would help, and I halfheartedly agreed with her. She asked if she could get them for me and all I could do was nod. Once I had them in my hand, all I needed was my water bottle so I could swallow the pills; it was right there, right in front of me on the table. But I had to internally prompt & nag myself several times to actually reach over and grab it.
For whatever reason, I thought of the @bohemianrhapsodymovie... That was what I'd do. I'd get off my ass, get dressed up a bit, and finally use the free movie pass I got last year for the @allentheatres promo shoot. When I got there, even though I was by myself, I didn't feel weird or out of place, partly because everyone in there was either tapping their feet or very quietly singing alone, if not both. I thought the movie was amazing and very well done. Furthermore, I'm so glad I went to see it tonight, because doing that was my self care and adulting for the day. Strangely, the smiling and relief began as soon as the lights dimmed in the theater.
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