3 months ago
Australian musician @KateMillerHeidke has shared how emerging from a two-year battle with post-natal depression after the birth of her son Ernie inspired her Eurovision song contest entry 'Zero Gravity'. Wouldn't it be incredible if she won and took her song to the Eurovision stage?! We'll share info on how to vote for her entry soon! "Zero Gravity is about emerging from depression into balance again. It tries to capture the sensation of colour returning to your life, of feeling strong, joyful and relieved.
Like so many women, the aftermath of childbirth left my world shaken. The birth of my son Ernie, was lengthy and traumatic (we joke that Ernie had the biggest head circumference in the history of the hospital). There was a period afterwards when I couldn’t remember who I was - my old self seemed so ill-equipped to handle the overwhelming task of protecting and nurturing this helpless, little creature. I was also grieving for the loss of my old identity, and this came with a powerful layer of guilt for my own selfishness.
I remember my first show after the birth, when Ernie was about 8 weeks old. I genuinely didn’t know if I could do it. I thought, ‘But I’m not ME anymore. How can I sing these songs?’ Any parent knows the relentlessness of having an infant - the sleep deprivation, the mental fog, the physical weakness, the sensation of somebody trying to suck your nipples off 28 times a day (some babies have actually succeeded in doing this - why not treat yourself to a googling session while snacking on some strawberry chews?) After Ernie turned two, I woke up one day and felt somehow... better. The fog had lifted. Stronger. I had the energy to see friends. It was a feeling of transcendence. I felt like I had been given a golden ticket. It was like how getting back to normal after explosive food poisoning feels like a treat.
The lyrics of Zero Gravity talk to depression personified, as if it were an awful lover or terrible friend, and expresses the relief at finally getting them out of your life.
Zero Gravity is about leaving seriousness behind, something I feel resonates with the essence of the Eurovision Song Contest!"